I really really hate my brain

So woke up this morning – it’s a lovely day. Sun is out, don’t have to do anything other than a little housework, and I even got to sleep in for a while.

And what happens? Helloooooo anxiety.

I feel like I should be shaking like a leaf, but according to my hands I’m not. I’m looking at the dishes that need doing, and I feel guilty because I know I should be doing them but I’m scared that if I try I’ll end up breaking half of them. I would very much like to game for a little while and kill a few orcs, because that always makes me feel a bit better (no idea why, but it works) but I feel guilty for wanting to do that when Hubby is outside mowing the lawn. Because somehow, my brain thinks that just because HE is doing work, I should be too, otherwise he’ll think I’m a lazy idiot. And for some reason, doing something that helps me be ABLE to get on with doing that work (that could be classed as a recreational activity) would be classed as “lazy” by my brain.

Like I said, I hate my brain sometimes.

So instead I’m on here, trying to get myself calm enough that I can think straight and be able to do the dishes and the rest of what I have to do today without ending up in a little ball in the corner.

~K

2015 Reading Challenge

So, as I mentioned here, I’m going to attempt the PopSugar reading challenge this year.

I’m having a little trouble with selecting books for some of the things though, so any help would be GREATLY appreciated!

Before I go into it though, the following books are not being considered for the list:

  • Twilight series – because I read it once and that was enough
  • Hunger Games – ditto
  • 50 Shades of Grey – ditto again
  • My Sister’s Keeper – I’ve read it too many times to count, and I’d like a different tear-jerker
  • Harry Potter – I know the series upside-down, back-to-front, and inside-out. I need some new material.
  • Shakespeare – I did WAAAAY too much Shakespeare in high school and my first few years at uni. NO MORE!

So, here’s the list (the bold ones are what I need help with):

  1. A book with more than 500 pages
  2. A classic romance – Wuthering Heights; Emily Brontë
  3. A book that became a movie – The Book Thief; Markus Zusak
  4. A book published this year – Leila’s Secret; Kooshyar Karimi
  5. A book with a number in the title – One Flew Over The Cuckoo’s Nest; Ken Kesey
  6. A book written by someone under 30 – I Am Malala; Malala Yousafzai
  7. A book with non-human characters – The Art of Purring; David Michie
  8. A funny book – something Terry Pratchett – or possibly Bossypants; Tina Fey
  9. A book by a female author – The Tiger’s Wife; Téa Obreht
  10. A mystery or thriller – Under the Dome; Stephen King
  11. A book with a one-word title – March; Geraldine Brooks
  12. A book of short stories – Lord Arther Savile’s Crime and Other Stories; Oscar Wilde
  13. A book set in a different country – Wild Swans; Jung Chang
  14. A nonfiction book – The Common Thread; Martha Manning
  15. A popular author’s first book
  16. A book from an author you love that you haven’t read yet – Ship of Magic; Robin Hobb (and the rest of the trilogy)
  17. A book a friend recommended – The Opposite of Loneliness: Essays & Stories; Marina Keegan
  18. A Pulitzer Prize-winning book
  19. A book based on a true story
  20. A book at the bottom of your to-read list(this is hard because there isn’t really a “bottom” of my list as such – just books that I haven’t been able to get cheap or free yet)
  21. A book your Mum loves
  22. A book that scares you – The Shining; Stephen King (well it’s supposed to be scary, so I’ll see how I go)
  23. A book more than 100 years old – Emma; Jane Austen
  24. A book based entirely on its cover
  25. A book you were supposed to read in school and didn’t – Tess of the D’Urbervilles (by school, this was actually a book I was supposed to read in my first semester at Uni for an English Lit course…)
  26. A memoir – Me of the Never Never; Fiona O’Loughlin
  27. A book you can finish in a day
  28. A book with antonyms in the title
  29. A book set somewhere you’ve always wanted to visit – (accepting suggestions from just about anywhere, I just want to travel!)
  30. A book that came out the year you were born – (1989)
  31. A book with bad reviews
  32. A trilogy – Farseer trilogy; Robin Hobb
  33. A book from your childhood – A Little Princess; Frances Hodgson Burnett
  34. A book with a love triangle
  35. A book set in the future 
  36. A book set in high school – Perks of Being a Wallflower
  37. A book with a colour in the title – The Silver Chair; C.S. Lewis
  38. A book that made you cry
  39. A book with magic – (probably something Terry Pratchett again – most of the “magic” books I know of are series, and if I read the first book in the series I’ll go and read the rest of the books and this list will be abandoned)
  40. A graphic novel
  41. A book by an author you’ve never read before – Eleanor & Park; Rainbow Rowell
  42. A book you own but have never read – Memoirs of a Geisha
  43. A book that takes place in your hometown – (I will find something for this, but if anyone has any Australian suggestions I’m open to anything)
  44. A book that was originally written in a different language – Kafka on the Shore; Haruki Murakami
  45. A book set during Christmas – 1225 Christmas Tree Lane; Debbie Macomber
  46. A book written by an author with your same initials – (KR)
  47. A play 
  48. A “banned book” – (What are ‘banned books’ anyway? I don’t think we do that sort of thing in Australia)
  49. A book based on/turned into a TV show – Call the Midwife; Jennifer Worth
  50. A book you started but never finished – The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People; Stephen R Covey

Thanks guys, your assistance will be greatly appreciated!

~K